I reget my honeymoon style !:(

Hello, I had an arranged marriage almost a year ago and when i went to honeymoon i wore a very little of makeup and sometimes no makeup at all, my style wasn’t feminine and not even that elegant

I was showing my friend my photos and she was like why didn’t you wear makeup? I felt so ugly:)

Now when i look at my photos and videos I don’t like them and don’t wanna show most of them to anyone, i wish if i had another honeymoon to just feel like a bride

But also i keep saying I don’t know that guy and wasn’t that excited for him and kinda nervous

How do i deal with that feelings :(?